Maven Musing: Moving Slow

I know things have been extremely quiet around here lately. And for that, I am sorry. But during that silence, I have been doing some serious soul work that has made my perspective come into a sharp focus.
I’ve been moving much more slowly the last few weeks than I had realized. I don’t think it was a conscious choice, my body and spirit simply took the reins.

I had a shocking past life awakening in the midst of the eclipse and it triggered a bright, sudden awareness of my behavior. A deep rooted pain and fear that I have carried with me for as long as I can remember with no seeming reason.
I often operate from a space of frenzy and fear. Everything felt important and if I could not do it, I was failing. In all my soul work, I still have yet to overcome this deeply rooted issue. It’s exhausting and frustrating to see myself take a step forward and be drug two steps back.
I have spoken of the importance for solitude, silence, and slowing down before. But here I was revving up and running myself down.
Until one morning, I found myself laying in bed near tears thinking about having to get up. I had nothing else to give anyone, not even myself.  I felt a shift in me that something, anything, had to change. I felt as though I was drowning.
Where most everyone else seemed to be experiencing a wild upheaval of their external lives, all of my chaos remained internal. It was unseen, and therefore, I felt I could not explain it.  Without the physical evidence, it is always difficult to get others to believe your struggle.
So I’ve been hiding from everyone, whether they may have been aware of it or not. I demanded emotional space. I cleared away physical space in my home that I felt suffocated by.
It started a new trend where I left myself say no. I had a sudden recognition that I’m not racing anyone. Things will happen as I enact them. I do wield power and must control what I can and let the rest fall away.
But it has taken active work to do so. My passivity is what leads me into over commitment. I knew if I did not make myself nearly painfully present some days, I would slip back.
I’ve been practicing, and that resulted in holding you at arms length. I was not ready to share or push things along.  My own fears muddled things and I no longer feel called to do things just for the sake of saying I “did something”.
So I thank you for sticking around and checking in.  My Hermit days have brought me much clarity.
All my love,
Kat
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Tarot Forecast – Aug 20-26, 2018

I have been channeling the Hermit quite a lot this summer. These eclipses have triggered so much within me that I haven’t really known up from down. More on that later 😉
But even with all of that, I have been working on things. Have you ever experienced a sudden and bright moment of clarity that almost seems to give you tunnel vision? I have been having those moments left and right it seems.
This week’s tarot reading resonated with me so hard this week in reference to those moments.
I even felt called to make a little change in our deck finally! A wonderful friend gifted me quite a few of his decks in the past few weeks. The traditional Rider-Waite has been gently calling my name since that time, but today I swore it yelled at me. A small push to my senses and I was upstairs pulling it from my altar.
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1. What energy do we need to channel this week?

Reversed Three of Wands
A bright, shining note that our struggles should be coming to the end. Expansion, Enterprise, and Preparation all driven by foresight. Everything is progressing as it should due to your careful planning.

2. What do we need to watch out for?

Queen of Cups
The Queen is ruled by her heart rather than her head. With everything we are working towards, we must not lose sight of rational thought. As we move closer to the full moon, our emotional state is much higher. Our receptivity and intuition grows and with that, we become more responsive to the needs of those around us. We must remain actively aware of our boundaries. In order to remain focused on our creative pursuits, we must choose who and what receives our attention.

3. How can we overcome challenges?

Reversed Eight of Pentacles
Our attention to detail can begin to get in the way. We lose sight of the forest through the trees. This meticulous attention can stall your energy out and cause you to focus on making it “perfect” – which nothing will ever be. Take a step back and remember to keep at least one eye on your larger picture.

SSBC (super secret bottom card)

Five of Cups
The gentleman in the card is entirely focused on the split cups before him that he ignores what he has remaining. While our past can be painful, we must be in this present moment. Allow yourself to forgive and use your past as a learning tool. Hindsight is clearer than foresight. We cannot lose sight of the lessons we have learned to get us to this space. This also brings me to think of the concept of “half full or half empty”. Where do you consider your cup? Does that impact how you view your past and future? How does that impact how you act on opportunities?
Stay strong, positive, and self confident this week, mavens! Allow your past to inform your present, but do not let it steer for you. You can and will overcome. Dream big, be bold, act!

All my love,

Kat

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Tarot Forecast – Aug 6 – 12

Hello loves! I swear that other posts from us are coming soon. This summer has just been rough. We have all retreated and been spending more and more time on our own. These eclipses have triggered some deep inner work that, with the demands on the day to day, has just taken all of our emotional energy out of us. Soon though! And if you have any special requests, always feel free to reach out.
This week’s reading had an incredibly clear message: “Trust and move towards your intentions”

1. What energy do we need to channel this week? Reversed Hermit
Listen to your inner voice. There are two messages that come with the hermit – either we need to make that time one of deep spiritual work and listening to Self or we may be spending too much time in this space.
Take a moment to reflect where you are falling on this spectrum. Time on my own has put a lot of things in perspective for me. I have been much more intentional about who gets my time outside of work and home. I have large projects I am working on and it takes all of my inner strength to not allow my anxiety and impostor syndrome issues to derail me.
2. What do we need to look out for? Reversed Priest [Heirophant]
As we walk our path we must maintain and openness and understanding to others practices. We have all encountered those that cannot open their hearts to understand others. Reflect on your own words and guidance – do not impose your own practices or beliefs on others that do not expressly ask for it. Also, set boundaries for those that attempt to impose their path on you.
3. How can we overcome challenges? The Chariot
You control your path. Clarify your intentions, make a plan, gather resources and go. Take your time as a hermit to get clarity on what it is you want and need and how to accomplish it. Do not allow the perspectives of others to shake you from your path.
SSBC * Reversed King of Cups
Do not let your inclination towards reconciliation compromise your values
Take greater control and responsibility for your current emotional state. Who is being toxic in your life? Where and who do you need boundaries with? Is your behavior the issue at hand?
Is there anything in particular that comes to mind with this reading?  I know this message rang loud and clear for me on what I need to focus on.  My energy has been feeling motivated, but scattered.
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Tarot Forecast: 06.25-07.01.2018

Hello loves! Last week got away from me, so I’m back this week with a vengeance.
But, before that, how was your weekend!? My husband and I got to head off to Buena Vista for a long weekend and beautiful wedding. I am truly surprised at how many moments I felt pure peace and happiness. We had a small room right on the Arkansas river and just listening to it in pure silence put my spirit at ease. Do you have any favorite places that always seem to calm your soul?
But now that we’re back to our 9-5s, its time to actually prepare for the week. Sometimes, I really feel like I should do these on a Sunday, but something about facing the chaos of Monday and actually seeing where the week may be heading brings my readings so much more insight into what I’ll be dealing with.

This week, is going to be an interesting one. There is a full moon on Wednesday, so some of us may be feeling entirely exhausted and others will be feeling inspired and ready to take on the world. I always love how we all wax&wane with her in different ways.
1. What energy do we need to channel this week?
Five of Sea [five of cups]:: we will be facing some disappointments this week. Things do not always go our way no matter how hard we try to manifest them in our favor. Face each moment with the knowledge that while your pride may be hurt, it shall only last a moment. You can begin again the next day.
2. What do we need to keep an eye out for?
Reversed Seven of Fire [seven of wands]:: due to disappointments, we may be feeling particularly defensive or we may come across other’s that feel defensive. Choose your fights carefully this week. Are you coming from a place where you know you are completely in the right? Is there anywhere you can compromise?
3. How can we overcome challenges?
Reversed Sky Tom [knight of swords]:: our hearts may be feeling more open to compassion towards those in our past. Particularly those that may have been on the receiving end of our emotional detachment or fight response. Accepting that those moments are in our past and working to move forward more positively is a sign of growth. We have all done and said things we may not be proud of, but we are capable of change and growth.
SSBC *our clarity card ::
Earth Queen [queen of pentacles]:: care for yourself and others in these moments of disappointment and failure. Being devoted to spiritual practice means facing all of who we were and are. But that does not mean that we are undeserving of love and care. Hold space for those that need it, and find those that will hold space for you when you do not feel your strongest this week.
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Being a Witch – Anxiety & Manifestation

Happy Thursday witches! I’ve finally sat down and worked through all my thoughts on this subject. If you follow Magickal Mavens on instagram, you may have seen my post about this Taurus New Moon helping me climb out of this dark cloud I’ve been under the last few months. While it’s likely I’ve just been dealing with some unexpected seasonal depression, it kicked my anxiety into high gear.
While I haven’t been diagnosed with any formal anxiety disorder, it’s something I’ve been dealing with since I was a pre-teen. I was always in a constant state of “what if”, preferring to lock myself away from people and read than interact with my peers. However anxious I was though, I always trusted my intuition about people and situations.
I will always remember the day I didn’t listen to her. Her voice whispered to me as I made plans. She caught herself in my mother’s voice as she asked me when I would be home. She raised the hair on the back of my neck and arms. She frantically dug a pit in my stomach so deep it felt as if it had no bottom. She begged and pleaded with me to run. And yet, I did not move. And in that split second of indecision, choosing to ignore her, she silenced her voice.
It has been a struggle ever since to convince her to speak louder than a soft whisper. I broke our bond and she could no longer trust herself to keep me safe if I was unwilling to heed her words.
This constant state of questioning myself and the intentions of those around me is exhausting. Some days are better than others, but up to the Taurus new moon, my anxiety has been at an all time high.
Walking this path requires us to embrace ourselves fully and to trust Her without question.
In order to truly manifest you must feel and trust what you want and need to deeply within your body that your energy is clearly channeled. There must be no doubt in your mind in what you want. Anxiety makes that feeling, a total bitch to get too. Intuition hides in Anxiety’s shadow, afraid to push her aside. Afraid to bring you back to that roaring fire inside you that always lit your path.
I have been slowly attempting to reconnect with Intuition. It is something I work on little by little every day. Relearning to trust myself and Her takes effort every day. It’s acknowledging the wavelength you find yourself on, encouraging and responding to those moments the moment they appear. It’s showing yourself grace and care on your bad days, and trusting that they will be over by morning.
I wanted to share with you a few of the things I have been implementing into my lifestyle that have helped me manage my anxiety and foster trust in myself. Learning to trust myself impacts every part of my life, and in particular my magick.
Being a Witch - Anxiety and Manifestation

1. Silence, Solitude & Space

2. Decisions Decisions Decisions

3. Prioritizing & Planning

4. Purging your internal dialogue

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Silence, Solitude, & Space –

This can be a difficult one, but for me it is usually the most important. It is imperative that for your own mental health and wellness that you find a few moments every day to care for yourself. How can you continue to care for those around you when you have literally nothing else to give? Caring for yourself is caring for your loved ones. You don’t do anyone any good by running yourself ragged.
Now, for those of you that are parents – I know this is practically an impossibility some days. So I challenge you to plan at least one day a MONTH to get some real peace and quiet. Trade off with your partner so that you can each have your moment to rest and reset. Your spirit will thank you.

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

For me, this was largely about what do I waste energy worrying about each day. I’ve worked to pair down my closet, my skin care, my makeup routine, even meal prepping. Anything I can think of that I can work to have a solid foundation in. If I can do it half-asleep, or on auto pilot and I look put together and well fed, I am a fan of. The less time and energy I put into these things, the more I can put towards the things I am passionate about.

Prioritizing & Planning

Keeping a rough daily/weekly schedule has helped my anxiety so much. Now, this is largely a control thing but it has helped me ensure I meet all of my “musts” each week. Working out, meal planning, content for MM, everything important to me. Anything outside of those musts is required to fit around those, and if it doesn’t – I say no. My bullet journal is becoming my greatest asset.

Purging your internal dialogue

You must have a space to dump your thoughts, unfiltered and unashamed of them. It is something I am still working on, but it has helped me so much in relearning to trust my initial thoughts and feelings regarding something. Whether this be in therapy, a journal, whatever makes sense for you – be sure to do it. First thing in the morning with your coffee, just after the kids have gone to bed and all is quiet.
These are still a work in progress for me. I’m sure they will never be perfect as we all grow, but they are the few things I am committing myself too. I may let my emotions fuel my magick, but I won’t let them control me.
I hope you found these helpful. If you implement any of these into your life I would love to hear how.

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